14th December 2005,
5.56pm still in the office. Today had great heahache, it's a sign of the monthly mood-swing thingy. Need my Panadol, this time will require more dose of supplements. Yesterday reached home about 9.30pm, has been whole day, went back Alor Setar for Uncle's funeral- fetched aunts to AS, dunno road to their house in Butterworth, a lot testing of my patience, but thank God overall everything is well. Have good chat with Small-Aunt. Listened to all the sharing of the 'chanting' and procession. We are the only family that believe in Christ. Sister was saying we got to pray more for our relatives, to be saved, rather than each year seeing relatives passed away without knowing God- a miserable thing. A heart of compassion for the lost, mission emphasis this month for people to reach out. Many times it's the fear, or it's the timidity or it's just not of the sensing of urgency to pray and to share the gospel- Are we need to be gifted in certain ways to share? It first comes in basic relationship, befriend the people, then it step up to testimony and lifestyles. Leading a Christian life, a God-fearing life, may the Lord open the eyes of the heart of people. But we got to do our part, we have our part to play- but when it comes to sharing...evangelism, people will stop...it's not my gift. Myself having the resistancy as well, it's more to do with pride.
Many ways to share the love of God- not by telling people Jesus died and rose again, and ask them to believe Christ. It's more of lifestyle, it's the stand in the world, a selfish world. A stand up among the rest, in workplace- speech. Mission trip, with creative ideas to share to the children etc. I missed Mission Trip, it always been an eye opener and great experience. Every different mission trip has something special, special message for His people and for the congregation. Need to approach it with willing and teachable spirit. Very important- teachable attitude, humble Spirit to learn, to accept correction, to accept rebuke- to be open in the Spirit for God to move. Not our ways but Him.
This year we are not going to have Caroling. Can't get guitarist, too many things and events going, so this yr got to let it pass. GM called the other day, I'm so sad to reject him...we should have do it, but not right time, not this year....it's 615pm now, got to make a move back home. Home Sweet Home*** Mummy cooked porridge, yum yum...hope it won't be jam. Mission emphasis- just got mail from Lee Lian, updates of mission again- sometimes too much of it can make you feel scared. Pray the Lord will lead His people to get His message of the mission in His due season...
